Good Days, Bad Days

I've had more than my share of bad days... time for someone else to share the load and let me have some good days for a while!

Three bad things that happened today:
- The check that arrived today was 50% of what I expected, and threw off my whole budget for the first half of the month. Sent me into a spiral panic for a moment, and caused a spate of tears... I'm just so tired of the this economy.

- Found out my new checks were never ordered two months ago. Of course, I was foolish to wait so long, especially when I have checks to write in two days.

- A friend of mine apparently won't be around online as much anymore.


Three good things that happened today:
- Peter and Brock loaned me the rest of the money missing from my check, and told me not to worry about paying it back.

- My computer at the new Pride office finally works, since I uninstalled Norton... of course, now I have to hope I haven't got any viruses, even though we're behind two firewalls.

- I'm still trying to keep my chin up, despite the pettiness and phoniness of some people that occasionally gets me down.

I have to not buy into what some people say, even when they make judgments about me. I'm way too trusting for my own good. Perhaps those folks should really look in a mirror first, and see if they like what they really see. Oh, and people? If you aren't wearing a black robe and holding a gavel, you really shouldn't be judging anyone. Me included.

Getting Over

Admittedly, the toughest problem I have is letting go of issues that appear to be hopelessly unresolvable. No final processing and wrap up between Eric and me will ever take place, and I still feel the need to tell him just how poorly he treated me, when I deserved better. No way to change the opinions about me formed by others, who have not invested the time to really get to know me... and find out if what they've been told is true.

Tilting at windmills, it is. Move over Don Quixote!

But I've always been a fighter and a firm believer of moral rights and justice. Tough not to be able to get that for yourself and watch people you know are so much smarter than that believe what they've been told by other people.

Whatever happened to listening to both sides of the story? What has happened to letting your own experiences with that person guide you, forming your own opinion, instead of letting the propaganda of others suffice? Whatever happened to honesty?